Blog Entry #1

Blog Entry #1 August 13, 2006 1:44 A.M.I can’t take it anymore. The frustration is getting to me. Here I am. Damn near 30, and I have yet to fall in love. Night’s like tonight is when the loneliness kicks in. It’s a cool, summer night. Perfect weather to be outside spending quality time with someone you love. Not sitting here on the PC, feeling like shit. You may ask, why didn’t you just go out anyway. We’ll, I did. I went out by myself tonight. But it’s not the same. Went to a rock N roll bar in the suburbs. Drunk white women everywhere. Some were cute, but it hardly was the environment to strike up a conversation. Most aren’t trying to show a brotha love. And I was one of the few black guys in the place. Call it balls or stupidity. Or just the desperation of looking for love in any place conceivable.You never know where miss right might present herself. And trust me, I’m looked a lot of places. But for whatever reason, I’m not what women are looking for. That’s the part that really pisses me off. If I hear another chick complain that they’re aren’t any good men out here, I’m going to fuckin’ scream. There are plenty of good men out here. Good black men. I am convinced it is the women out here that have the issues. And it seems like the ones with the most issues are the black women. The sistas have really disappointed me. Women in general have, but black women especially. So many of them are lost. So many of them are willing to settle for men who aren’t worth their time. Educated women down to hoodrats, it doesn’t matter. When it comes to leaving a sorry ass fucker, they lose all common sense. These are the women raising the next generation of black children? As a people, black folks are FUCKED.But tonight, I’m not even gonna vent on the sistas. Oh best believe, I will in the future. ‘cause there is a lot of pent up anger in my heart towards black women. Tonight though, it’s about loneliness. And why out of all the females in this city. In this world. Can’t I just find ONE that cares about me as much as I care about her. I know she’s out there. She needs to come to me quick.